Perpetual poppycock has been getting the last word lately. For the last few weeks every time I sit down to write a few words, my head starts getting in the way of completing the task. I’ve finally reached a point where there are no real roadblocks and plan to post this hodgepodge of a post no matter how incoherent it is just to prove a point that I can do it. I am the boss of me!
I’ve had some breakthroughs during my absence from posting, though. I’ve had a few sessions with a counselor that are teaching thoughtful exercises to gain new perspective. I don’t know if I’ve said this already but I love therapy/counseling. It just peels back the poppycock a bit and quiets the conflicts.
Right now what we are talking about and trying out is actually pretty hard for me. I’m unsure if I’m doing it right and that makes me wonder if it will be helpful but I agree with the hypothesis of the method so I wanted to give it a solid try before asking that we go at it another way.
The idea is that I tune into each of the voices in my thoughts and just be with them asking the conflicting voices to step aside. Once I feel like I have the attention and focus of one of the voices, I try to give it whatever attention it needs.
An example would be a judgmental voice that might be very critical of something I am doing or thinking. This voice might say things like, “you shouldn’t do that because it’s not good for you.” The conflicting voice might say, “you should definitely do that because it gives you a moment of joy so do it all the time, as much as you want.” This internal battle ensues.
The goal here is that once we give some time and attention to each of the voices/thoughts/feelings, they will find some peace and not try to fight amongst themselves in an effort to control my behavior so much.
I’m struggling a bit to know if I’m in the presence of the voice/thought or if I’m just pretending that I am so the exercise will be a success. My therapist understands and isn’t pressuring me to do it this way or that, but if I don’t get the hang of it soon, we will try something else. Just taking the time to-do some self help and investing in myself is enjoyable. I highly encourage it.
Other than that, I’m learning about real estate investing. It has always fascinated me and I want to pull the trigger on it at some point. It scares the bejeezus out of me but I know the long term benefits are real and that is why I will be rolling the dice on it soon.
Ok, I feel I’ve sufficiently beaten the perpetual poppycock here and am going to end this post. Now I can get back to working on another topic that might be interesting to read. I win 🙂